Tsardel

Been almost completely unable to get online at home and i'm even doing this update at my local library! It's been very frustrating at the moment. I want to write, i have so much stuff bottled up inside me right now, and i have no real way of getting it out. I wont write what i want to in pen and paper because i'll need to transcribe it back onto a computer at a later date and the amount i want to write it'd take forever and i'd just get bored, stop and never get it all finished. So im stuck watching dvd's and reading to try and lose myself and stop thinking about everything i want to do. I can't even explain how much this is bothering me, i

Things have been a little weird recently, in a good way. i simply can't wait to be with my love. It's been almost 5 years now since we saw each other and with us getting back together i can't wait to do so again. It's so weird to have all these feelings again, just like i did back in the beginning. She makes me feels like a teenage boy again, it's brilliant, I just can't wait to actually hold her again. Work is going to get easier, the guy i was hired with is leaving at the end of this month, which is good cause tbh i don't particularly like the guy. He's very bigoted and says stuff that just makes me cringe all the time. He wont really be

Those words "I'm sure" Keep going through my heart now. It's a good feeling, to feel something is right so deeply. Some people think i'm a better amn than most, some people think im a fool for having these feelings but i don't care either way. The only person i ever fully gave my heart too is back into my life again. It's been pretty quick, and the circumstances are difficult i guess, but i'm sure of this. No matter the shit that happened in the past i still held something deep inside me that screamed she was the one. I tried so ahrd to run away from that feeling, tried to lose myself in other people. Nothing ever came close, even though i g